Strong and content, I am now traveling an open road…….

Roads have a special meaning to us. They take us where we want to go. There is almost always a road associated with every place we go and every important event in our lives. Roads are everywhere, yet, roads are often minor details in our memories of important moments.



There is a parallel between roads and life. They make us think of our lives and how we have lived them – this is the road of life!

Rough roads, fallen bridges, deteriorating sections, heavy rains, flash floods and converging roads made it hard to travel and arrive safe to our destinations. It could even get worse by the stop signs, traffic lights, checkpoints, and intersecting traffic.



My travel in a cross road show my visions and progress through life. The life on the road is unpredictable and has many obstacles, yet full of hopes that the roads will be smooth and open.

My recent trip tells a good story against the horizon and tells how, against astonishing odds, I got to the place where I had to go.




“Cars” choke my roads… “Checkpoints” prompted me to stop often…. “Tires” stuck in the mud…”Heavy baggage” averted me from driving fast.

One thing, however, is certain… roads will continue to be a major part of our lives and will continue to symbolize the essence of our being…our decision..our fate!



I do take some precautions. I never pre-advertise my rides or route except to trusted friends. They love to give me directions, talk about the road conditions, wish me safe at all times and even travel with me just to make sure I am out-of harm in the road.

Do you hear me,
do you feel me moving through?
With my foot upon the gas,
between the future and the past,
I am here—
here where the desire to vanish
is stronger than the desire to appear.
I whimper no more, need nothing,
Strong and content I travel the open road.

"MissTaken" & M2M Versus: Rated X!

Two movies worth watching for:



"M2M Versus"
Starring: Paolo Rivero and Paolo Serrano

Versus is a tale of two male hunks undergoing the different stages of realization and of falling in and out of love. Their story reels off in their minds and is carried out in a rather sensual and provocative manner. What actually goes on…? And what are the complexities in the process of carrying out, staying in and moving on from this kind of relationship?

The two Paolos play characters that snugly fit their public personas: Paolo Rivero is serious and mature (he's an Urian-nominated actor who's been making movies for close to a decade), while Paolo Serrano is impetuous and happy-go-lucky (he's allegedly involved in a webcam scandal in which he flashes his privates and in another scandal in which he allegedly extorted money from a gay lover). The contrast works erotic wonders.

They're neighbors who meet, have lots of sex, fall in love, fight, and break up. Think of it like a story from Kwentong Kalibugan -- short (a little over 40 minutes), something trite you might have heard before or thought up yourself, but delivers for as long as it gets you hot and hard. The set pieces are standard Pinoy softcore: shower, bedroom, bodega, car, basketball court. No dialogue too, just voice-overs. Clearly, the cost of making it must have been minimal, but you almost can't tell by the relatively decent technical values.

The two actors use their bodies well -- torsos, butts, pubes, bushy armpits, sweat, musculature. But half the appeal is in their facial expressiveness. Rivero brings the gravitas of a repressed man blossoming, but it's Serrano who steals the scenes with his unstoppably horny behavior. He channels sex with the mere flash of his naughty boyish smile. My favorite is when he assaults his partner's body with his actively lapping lips. I only wish the narrative didn't wind down disappointingly to a ho-hum ending.



"MISS TAKEN"
Starring: Jao Mapa, Pia peron and Emil Sandoval

One morning, Bryan Santos (Jao Mapa) calls up Police Sgt. Martinez (Emil Sandoval) and shows him a naked woman he woke up to sleeping beside him in bed.
Anna (Pia Peron) insists she is Bryan's wife- while Bryan insist to the cop that he never saw this woman before.

Sgt. Martinez digs deep into the mystery as Bryan waits for his wife to be found, while the strange woman lives with him as if they were husband and wife all along.
Confusion clouds Bryan because all of his friends acknowledge the strange girl as Marcia (Bryan's missing wife).

Bryan gets trapped more and more in a web of conspiracy, sex and mind games.

Waging his tail instead of his mouth…

"A dog is a man's best friend."

Raising a pup is a lot of hard work, but it gives back fulfillment! A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself.

I never thought I'd ever be so excited about having a puppy, although, I am a pet-lover ever since.

I can buy more clothes, spend lavishly for my needs…be a philanthropist.. show my concern for other people… but seldom to receive a warm loyalty like what a pet dog can give. He is worthy of such devotion. Dogs don't lie. When strangers come, they growl and bark, they know their loved ones in the dark. As long as your demeanor carries with it the promise of affection (and good food!) he will protect you at all times.

We brought Jefjef, my new puppy, from Manila to our hometown (almost 500 km) before the holiday and I was quite anxious that he might get sick of long travel and feel snotty of his new home in the province. At first I saw his reluctance since he was secluded miles away from his other siblings. When we arrived, he was uneasy and preferred to be in his cage most of the times. All the while I thought he’s sick and enervated coz he didn’t eat well. But when my nieces started to play with him, he started to be brisky and feels that he has a new home. He never sleeps near with anyone except beside me nor can sleep well without me.

He chases me wherever I go.
He feels annoyed when I ignore him.
When no one wants to play with him, Jefjef is having fun with “Donkey”, my cuddly teddy pony (a gift to me by Rachel Alejandro’s mother “Myrna” 15 years ago) .

I talk to him when I'm lonesome and I'm sure he understands. I play with him when I’m happy and I feel he loves to see me always happy. When he looks at me so attentively, and gently licks my hands; then he rubs his nose on my
clothes, that’s the time I feel his genuine affections.

Since I had much time during my vacation, I get along with my Jefjef the best that I can. Of course, there’s my family who can assure me his comfort at home, (just like what they are doing to our 2-year old house-guard dog “Dambo” and to my brother’s shitsu pet “Specks” ) while I’m away and will be gone for quite a long time. Jefjef has been doing great lately.

Soon, he will be joined by another pup, and most likely his match, whom I will call “Basha”.

Actually, the great pleasure of a dog is that you may make a fool of yourself with him and not only will he not scold you, but he will make a fool of himself too.

I think we are drawn to dogs because they are the uninhibited creatures we might be if we weren't certain we knew better.

They fight for honor at the first challenge… make love with no moral restraint… That’s how dogs differ from the human being.



Why jefjef?

He has no name yet when we got him. My family suggests to name him Pacquiao, Pacul, Nero, Spike, Dingdong, etc., but I decided to baptize him Jefjef, hoping that he will be like my 2 “Jeffrey” friends who are kind, nice and lovable.

We socialize him and keep him from getting territorial by bringing him in town whenever we’re out. We've been trying to take him everywhere we go so he can meet new people and get comfortable with strangers. We never let him stay in his cage. He's such a friendly dog!

I think dogs are the most amazing creatures; they give unconditional love. For me they are the role model for being alive.

Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole.

I missed my Jefjef… my pet….. my loyal and trusted friend ..

Manny Pangilinan for President?

This is a re-print of Cito Beltran's column in Philippine Star:

Last week a couple of people shared their willingness and desire to support certain personalities who possess integrity, expertise and a great love for the Philippines.
The most visible and vocal expression of support came from Senator Panfilo Lacson who spoke highly of Supreme Court Chief Justice Puno and how the Senator was more than willing to be the campaign manager for the Chief Justice if he decides to take on the challenge.

Others were a little more private but no less passionate in their belief in someone else.

I had the chance to chat with OMB Chairman and respected actor Edu Manzano about the Lacson endorsement and Edu expressed “his” wish that Businessman Manny Pangilinan could be convinced to run for President.

Why not? More than any of his victories in business and social causes, Manny Pangilinan truly deserves recognition for “Believing” and “Investing” in the Philippines in spite of all the negative realities and corruption in government and politics. In the same breath, MVP as he is also called, has built up major businesses out of small or risky investments. As a leader and manager, he is very hands-on and responsive even to small matters.

Beyond the business, I also know that MVP is not always about business. He may want to close a deal so badly, but if realizes that someone is trying to take advantage he is capable of cutting clean and cold. He may have a soft spot for orphans and Juvenile offenders, but the man has zero tolerance for slackers and screw-ups and if he doesn’t like you, it shows either “tongue-in- cheek” or in your face.

But is that enough to be a good President? Given our past experiences and the so-called available choices, Edu might just be right.

I personally have found it strange if not stupid that in the Philippines, businessmen don’t exert or exercise their rights and their influence on politics. Every election, politicians from different camps, all go to the same businessmen to collect money for their campaign funds. Unlike other countries where candidates go only to businessmen who belong to their party, here it is “OPEN “ territory.
The “segurista” mentality of investors has sadly been their greatest loss. Instead of building up talent and relationship, they simply buy insurance which is empty and of no value.

You would think that for all the money “extorted” from businessmen, our politicians could at least give back in terms of “Business friendly” legislation or maybe even competent and capable cabinet members. But they don’t.

At the end of the day, businessmen and all Filipinos get what we pay for. How is it possible that the most important, most sensitive as well as critically symbolic offices and organizations for business are all headed or controlled by political appointees or dummies for the administration? How can we expect good relations between Malacanang and the Makati business club, if the President, is surrounded by failed businessmen or business people who profit by influence?

Businessmen are so short sighted that they are not willing to think in terms of programs and governance. Everything is about “the deal”. So rather than have a program to make government business friendly and institute competence in all positions of government, businessmen invest on lawyers and fixers to deal with the problem.

Just remember that guys like (ex) SP Manny Villar was just an Entrepreneur who eventually found it necessary to run for Congress and Senate because government often became a hindrance to real estate developers like him.

I have always believed that when SMC Chairman Danding Cojuangco ran for President it was not all about becoming President of the Philippines but about sending a message to his political persecutors that he had the muscle and the support of many people.
The message was so clear they left him in peace. He then went about reclaiming and rebuilding San Miguel Corporation, which is now a world- class success.

* * *

It is interesting that product endorsers like Senator Lacson and Edu Manzano are being vocal or honest about who should lead the nation and why. Yet in all the color and bang, I sense a hurried desire to solve the nation’s ills through the sacrifice of one man. Once again we look to another person instead of ourselves.

I reminded Edu that although I don’t like him for closing down my DVD suppliers, he has done a lot in the fight against piracy and correcting our wrong behavior. As a TV show host he can certainly influence millions by voicing hope and modeling hard work. Senator Lacson, although controversial, has given that hope that someone is busting graft and corruption and making life difficult for corrupt government officials.

In much the same way, all of us are in a position to comfort the afflicted and enjoy afflicting the comfortable. You don’t need an Obama, a Puno, or Pangilinan to uplift your surroundings, all you need is a broom, a match and the will.

I lead a circle of 18 men who started out as minimalists in terms of prayers but radical about fast cars and fast deals. But when they discovered how team prayers have helped a woman recover after being given the last rites, they took notice. When they saw their marriages restored, their children healed and their business booming, they began to understand. No money has been spent, yet so many prayers for complete strangers have been answered.


Link: C-Talk Philippine Star

And If I Go...

And if I go,
while you're still here...
Know that I still live on,
Vibrating to a different measure
behind a thin veil
you cannot see through.
You will not see me,
so you must have faith.
I wait the time
when we can soar
together again,
both aware
of each other.
Until then,
live your life
to the fullest,
And when
you need me,
just whisper
my name
in your heart,
...I will be there.

Talagang "Di Na Ganun!"

Di Na Ganun
by: Yeng Constantino

Paano na lang kung ako ang iiyak sa iyo
Paano na yan buti kung may magawa pa ako
E paano na kung ako na ang nahihirapan
Magagawa ko ba sa'yo na bigla kang talikuran

[*]
Wala na ang dating tamis
At sa tingin ko'y di ko na maibabalik

[Chorus:]
Bakit di ko maaming wala na ang dating damdamin
Di na ganun
At hindi ko na kayang piliting muli mong angkinin
Di na ganun

Paano na lang kung biglang masabi ko sa iyo
Buti kung intindihin mo ako
Paano kaya kung ikaw ay akin nang iwasan o iwanan

(Repeat * and Chorus)

Ibubulong na lang sa hangin ang aking nararamdaman
Nalilito na ako pa'no mo ba malalaman

(Repeat Chorus Twice)

Are They?

I was surfing the Internet yesterday when I came across of a website that features articles, blogs and what have you about our favorite local actors. As I was scrolling the page down I happened to see an article about local actors rumored to be gay. Some actors on the list were really obvious and you really can tell what they are just by looking at how they carry themselves in public. But some are still a shocking revelation for me until now.

Below are the lists of these actors:

1. PIOLO PASCUAL
It was rumored that another TV actor/commercial model was caught giving him a head inside the latter's van outside the Abs-cbn studios. Si JM Rodriguez ang humala sa kanya. Naging alaga rin siya ni Eric Quizon.

2. CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA
Christian might have captivated everybody with his great voice but rumor has it that he is a certified bisexual. Mag ka live-in sila ni Carl o Orosa, no!!!

3. MARVIN AGUSTIN
Rumor has it that his latest partner happens to be a lot older than him: Edu Manzano! Hies-off to Boracay anytime he feels the urged to be "analyzed" by good-lookin foreigners. He used to be the kept boylet of Enrico Santos, an Abs-cbn executive. Before he courted John Lloyd Cruz, hindi lang siya pinatulan. Kasama niyang gumawa ng “crime” madalas si Dominic Ochoa. Pinagsasaluhan pa ng dalawa si Rico Yan . . . nalaman ito ni Claudene Barretto dahil sa maid ng yumao . . . na nahuli sila sa bahay . Another source told me na naka-sex nya na he’s not good in bed at hindi proportional ang alam mo na hehehe….

4.EDU MANZANO
According to a source: “Hello hiniwalayan ni Vilma.. Iniwan ni Marya. Lately, nilayasan ni Rina (samson, low profile lass) at Alicia and u call him straight”? Nagign alaga ni Christian espiritu, a top fashion model, kaya hayun nahawa.

5. JOHN PRATTS
Shocked? yep yep yep he’s a PAPAble discreet guy with a heart beating exclusively for equally PAPAble guys. Heart knows of course, she was used to cover up the boy next-door image of Mr. Pratts. Sus ginoo! Tuklas na tuklas iyan, pumasyal kayo sa ABS-CBN!

6. ERIC QUIZON
Need I say more? Everybody but his father seems to know his sexual preference. Hindi pa pinapanganak si Isaac Newton, gerlash na sha . . .

7. PAOLO BALLESTEROS
The cute lad u see on GMA 7’s Eat Bulaga “is a gay, I swear”! a source said. He’s favorite escapade is threesome. Madalas daw nito binobosohan sa dressing room si Vic Sotto. Pinagpipiyestahan din siya ng mga badash sa Eat Bulaga. Sila sila, kami-kami!

8. MICHEAL JOSH SANTANA
He’s the better half of Paolo Ballesteros. Alaga din siya ng isang gay member ng defunct all-male/female band.

9. JM RODRIGUEZ
This Cornetto gay guy is a talented La Sallista. You see him on parties with his good friend, another openly gay - Tim Yap. And yes he’s the guy who was humored that gave Piolo a head. Security guard nakahuli sa kanila.

10. RJ ROSALES
Rj is currently living in with fellow stage actor Jay Spano (who is he? Don’t ask me… I don’t know)

11. JV VILLAR
From delivering Police reports in TV Patrol to showbiz chismis in The BUZZ. He’s rumored to have a policeman for a lover (maybe he was so engrossed with his police reports). Yes this is true!!

12. RAYMOND GUTTIEREZ
Ask who his greatest influence is? none other than his ate Ruffa. His mother reportedly barred him from going to the Philippines lest he be the object of mockery and ridicule.

13. JUAN RODRIGO
Seasoned actor cum recording artist. Still single and very discreet. Ask Nora Aunor .

14. RR HERRERA
Report says he’s living in with another former child actor, Jaypee de Guzman.

15. JAYPEE DE GUZMAN
The Sunday Inquirer magazine sometime last year came out with an issue with Jaypee and Rr on the cover. The article talked about the two boys' special friendship.

16. ERIK SANTOS
He should come out in the closet because the more he hides his "gayness" the more it really shows on/off the boob tube. His barkada is a mix of discreet fellas and loud gays. He was recently spotted in a resto located inside a mall once and he was so landi and harot with his friends. He still hangs out at his former alma mater and other campuses - hunting for boys. Tingnan niyo naman ang lipstick!!

17. CHICO GARCIA
Ask his contemporaries in UP and they’ll tell you “hanggang ngayon ba naman di pa sya naglaladlad”? Galing magtago no!

18. RUSTOM PADILLA
Need I say more? Carmina knows better or worse. Nakita nyo ba ang transformation niya lately? Gosh girl na girl ang dating ng lola mo promoting “her” beauty products. Kasabay siya pinanganak ni eba.

19. JORDAN HERRERA and JAKE ROXAS
Both these guys have had gay lovers before. Jordan was with the infamous Jojit Deniro. Rumor has it that Jake on the other hand could be avail for P15, 000. Look for him at Gold's gym.

20. PAOLO MONTALBAN
Once included in Peoples magazine 50 most beautiful people in America . He was rumored caught kissing with a male model in a disco house in Makati months back.

21. MARC NELSON
He was rumored gay. Believe it or not, it is already confirmed that the well-buffed hunky Marc is indeed a kapatid sa pananampalataya. He was caught doing it with an in demand male model at his favorite gym. Another rumor has it: Marc Nelson was caught having sex with Jordan Herrera at the same gym yet again. Ay ito, true na true, walang duda!!! At super maniakis yan sa guys!!

22. RAYMOND BAGATSING
The breakup of his eight-month- old marriage to actress Lara Fabregas may have surprised his fans, show biz associates and even those who are close to him, but some are not surprised. You know why….

23.CHRISTOPHER DE LEON
guys!! Need I say more?

Source: KNYG re-publish

Next time, i shall post those who, for me, are confirmed gays/bi's in showbiz based on what i know.

Best of Life

Some won’t appreciate what you say or do, but as long as you speak honestly from the heart, you’ll be fine. This is not a perfect life, but life loves the person who dares to live it by being real.

When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who leaves you. And it doesn't mean that they are bad persons, it just means that their part in the story is over


How to get the best out of your life?

Face your past without regret, don’t be disappointed by the lost of the people who never been kind to you, handle your present with confidence, live a new life always, and prepare for the future without fear, treasure the people who never let you down.

Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and don't doubt your beliefs.



Time and things don't really last. What matters are the people we care about and the values we dare to live and share.

If people have to leave us in one way or another, it would be best if they'll do it 100% lie-free and just slap the truth in our faces. We all do deserve something better than just lame excuses because lies in all sort do make us appear stupid.

It is wiser not to expect, but to hope. For in expecting, we meet disappointments; whereas in hoping, we invite surprises.







Life can be happier and less stressful if we remember one simple thought: We can't have all that we desire but GOD will give us all that we deserve.
Life is wonderful if you know how to live!

Meant To Be.....

If it's meant to be, our hearts will find each other even when we are apart. And if our hearts melt together so will our bodies and soul. Then, every word and every touch will fuel our passion flame. I'll be yours, you'll be mine, and we'll be one till the end of time.

You know what happiness is?

You know what happiness is?

Its waking up in the middle of the night, shifting blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you…

You turn around and you see the innocent state of that person…

You smile, kiss the face gently so as not to awake that person.

You turn around and a grin forms on your face…

Then you feel an arm wrapped around your waist…and you know it doesn’t get any better than this.

They Were Kids Before....

Time flies..but memories remain.

As we grow older, we tried to bring back the good memories and the people who had come along the way…Some stays…others are gone….

Nevertheless, bringing back the memories and remembering the people who, by circumstances and necessity, had separated from us, can make us contemplate on how, and where are they now.

I have soft-spots for kids until now. I had this feeling that whenever I am with young people, I feel I am rejuvenated. Iba ang pakiramdam pag kasama mo mga bata.. naglalaro.. nag aalaga…nagpapatulog..naglalambing…

Para sa akin, mas natutuwa ako pag kasama ko mga bata kasi kung ano ang pinapakita nila, yon ang totoo. Kung ano sasabihin sa iyo, galing sa puso nila. Ika nga, you learn honesty from them.

On my top list of the kids I missed so much, of course, my brother, nieces and nephews and cousins:

I was nine years old when my mother gave birth to a healthy boy. When me and my sister arrived from school, we took time para alagaan namin siya, maglalaro kami, minsan, kinukulit namin. It took four years bago ulit kami magkaroon ng kapatid. We were already in high school, pero andoon pa rin yong affection naming sa aming mga kapatid. As time went by, lumalaki na sila and my sister had already her own family. This time yong mga anak naman nila ang pinagtutunan naming ng pansin, lalo na ang parents ko.

I enjoyed spending my time with my nieces and nephews. Mas gusto ko pa ang makilaro sa kanila kaysa sa lumabas ng bahay.

When I finished my studies, it was time for me to be independent at mahiwalay sa kanila. I took job in Manila pero during vacation, umuuwi ako sa province kaya nakakasama ko sila once and a while. Of course as they grow older, hindi na katulad ng dati na puwede ko silang kargahin o maglaro kami gaya ng dati.

When I was in Manila, dahil sa sobra kong na mimiss ang pagkakaroon ng mga batang inaalagaan, I usually go to my neighbors and friends. Naghahanap ng mga bata.

It so happened that my friend has an aunt from the states who decided to live in Manila and became our neighbor. Tita Cel has 4 kids, Mark, Bianca (from her first husband) and Tracy and Patrick from Tito pat (a retired American navy).

Naging close kami lalo na yong mga anak niya.


I remember Mark Paul, the eldest who was 10 years old that time, usually stayed in our place. Palaging naghahanap ng pagkain, nanonood ng TV, at maglalambing, hihingi ng pera dahil bibili daw siya ng pagkain or anything sa tindahan. At his age, kahit medyo malaki na siya, still, sa akin para ko siyang kapatid na kung may kailangan, I was there palagi sa kanya. Not only ion material things, kundi sa lahat na puwede kung i-share as their tito. During his graduation sa elementary, I was there for him at tuwang-tuwa siya.


Si Bianca, 8 years old, medyo mahiyahin. Usually, pag pinapagalitan siya ng mommy niya, sa akin pumupunta. She is kind, malambing at magalang na bata. Walang reklamo lalo na pag may inuutos sa kanya. Tuwang-tuwa siya pag nasa bahay namin. Sinasama ko pag namamalengke kami.. tumutulong sa akin pag nagluluto..naglilinis ng bahay.

The other kids are Tracy, 4 years old and Patrick, 2 years old. They’re Tital Cel’s children to her second husband, Tito Pat.

At first, when they arrived, medyo hindi pa nakapag adjust yong dalawa, pero nang tumagal, nawala yong culture shock nila at naging at ease na sila. Dahil nga sa super cute silang pareho, nakakaliw silang alagaan.


Now after ten years that I haven’t seen them, I had the chance to know how they are doing now. Ibang-iba na kaysa sa dati. I cannot even hug and carry them like what I did before. Hindi na kami puwedeng maglaro, wala ng magsusumbong, wala ng mapipikon, at wala nang iiyak kapag may tantrums. Its only the memories that can be remembered at pag naaalala ko yon, natutuwa ako coz once in my life I feel much younger and happy during the time that we are together.

Never Again!

Make sure to check the freight forwarders not only for their prices but for their reliability. Filipinos living overseas are a close-knit community, they would certainly share with each other the most dependable and reliable service available based on their personal experiences.

As early as October, my balikbayan boxes were all packed and ready to be sent home thru seafreight. Dahil nga holidays, everything that I need during my vacations were included in the boxes because I don’t want to carry heavy luggage during my trip. Kasama doon yong lahat ng mga pasalubong, electronics, small appliances, home decors mga ihahanda namin on Christmas and New Year, my personal things, and a lot more.

Usually, it has to take 45-50 days to reach Manila from Riyadh. I am a regular customer of CONNOR CARGO FORWARDERS in Batha for almost 6 years. In the past years, they never failed me. Recently, many of my comrades, whom I recommend to this forwarder, complained that their cargo took almost 4 to six months (in some cases, it took them a year!) before they received the cargo in Manila. They were disappointed and decided not to send cargo thru Connor.

I did not take their complaints seriously dahil para sa akin bilang regular customer nila, siguro naman they will make me as an exception sa mga kaso ng mga kakilala ko. So sa kanila ko pa rin pinadala yong five boxes, which is almost 160 kilos last October 18, 2008. and I was hoping na first week of December nasa Manila na yon.

I arrived in Manila on November 28, and upon my arrival, tinawagan ko kaagad yong Manila agent nila to follow-up my stuff kasi I have to travel to my province on December 1. I was surprise na wala pa daw manifesto yong parating na cargo, so I have to call Riyadh to know what happened.

I have to cancel my scheduled 3 advance paid-flights in Cebu Pacific to Legazpi-Manila-Legazpi (Dec 1 , Dec 5 and Dec. 9) because I have to wait for it. After several follow-ups and it wass almost near Christmas, wala pa ring advise sa akin. So we traveled to Legazpi on December 21 na wala pa ring assurance tungkol doon, but I was still hoping na before New Year, darating yon. I was so disappointed when I learned that the cargo will arrive in Manila on January 15 pa.

Nasira lahat ng plans and budget ko. Kinakailangan kong gumastos pa para bumili ng handa namin on Christmas and New year.. I have to buy gifts for my family and friends. I have to forfeit my 3 flights and what so annoying, kailangan kong humingi ng dispensa sa mga dapat nabigyan ko ng pasalubong.

Just today – January 23(almost 3 months!), dumating ang cargo ko sa amin sa probinsya ng wala na ako doon and I missed the excitement sa pagbigay ng mga pasalubong. I should have manage to give out all my gifts personally pero hindi ko na magawa.

And I want to warn everyone about the many complaints of FW to Connor Forwarders located in Batha at the back of Manila Plaza. Think twice and find reputable cargo forwarders in order not to experience the same fate that I had.

It pays to pick well-known names who have been around for a while for your shipments as they already know the ropes and the whole process can be expected to be smooth and on-time.

Don’t send thru CONNOR FORWARDERS!

Down the Memoray Lane

While walking along the Timog Avenue, I stroll down memory lane and drop by some of my favorite places. But first, I scope out the area to see what’s new.

Before, parking was not a problem, but now, we have to ditch the wheels away from the place kung saan kami pupunta.

Food and entertainment now are never a problem in Morato and Timog Avenue. You can find restaurants, bars and entertainment venue till daybreak.

However, traffic and parking was (and still is) a pain in the ass especially on Friday and Saturday nights.

The area which we frequently visited 10 years ago was different now, everytime we go out with my friends noon, mas prefer talaga namin ang kahabaan ng Timog Avenue. Aside from being familiar with the place, malalapit ang mga places na gusto naming puntahan.

Honestly, I find myself getting sentimental while reminiscing the past. Ang dami kasing mga memorable experiences na nangyari sa akin at sa mga friends ko sa place na ito. But then when I look around, ibang-iba na ito kaysa sa dati.

Before, we used to go to Jailhouse Rock (now replaced by William's (?) billiard), Music Box, Gimik Bar, Padi’s Point, etc., then before we parted ways we took some good food sa Food Plaza katabi ng Lithauz, where we meet some of my friends working in bars. Then sabay-sabay na kaming umuuwi.

It was during that time na nakilala ko ang mga sing-along masters (who at that time hindi pa masyadong sikat) like Ate Gay, Patricia Ismael, Vice Ganda, Moymoy, Trissa and some celebrities also. Sa dami ng nakilala namin, it was Ferdie B., member of Glady’s and the Boxer, who was a regular host of JHR, ang naging ka-tropa namin. Magkakasama kami during weekends strolling, bar hopping and adventuring. It is also in this part of QC that I met my real friends who until now, ay buo pa rin eventhough we had lives of our own at may kanya-kanya nang buhay.



Sa pagpunta namin all together sa lugar na ito, ang sarap balikan ang mga tawanan, biruhan, kulitan, at tampuhan which made our friendship strong.

A Satisfying Vacation

On my journey, I don’t try to figure out where I will find true happiness. I just try to make others happy… and to my surprise, happiness finds me there…

I know nothing lasts forever and sometimes we won’t always stay together, but every smile and laughter I shared with people during my journey back home, convinces me that the memories will last for the rest of my life.

Family Bond

Happiness is not something in my hand; it is something that I carry in my heart.

To my siblings, John and Nene, you didn’t change at all except that we all grow and our love to each other never fades. Eventhough our father passed away, we never had any misunderstanding at all. I am so proud that our parents brought us this way. Never in our life na naging madamot tayo sa isa’t-isa. Never tayong nagkaroon ng away or nagkasakitan because that’s what they told us to do – to love and help each other.

To my in-laws and in-law to be – thanks for making our family bigger and closer.

To my nieces and nephews – I feel your compassion and respect. I know, you will go on rightfully with your journey in life kasi you grow up the way your parents used to be.

How can i forget my favorite angels – Angela and Angelie – make the most that your father provides you. Kahit malayo siya, try to feel his presence by being so caring and obedient to your mom.

To Mic-mic – my nephew – thanks for being my driver everywhere I go. Kahit alanganing oras, I have to wake you up para samahan ako. Hindi biro ang mag drive within the streets of Metro Manila, lalo na from Manila to Legazpi, but you manage to do it.

To Ding – take good care of Jef-jef and wish you the best with Harold.

To Che-che – just study hard. Alam mo naman that I am always here and I promise my full support till you got your degree.

To my mom – take good care of yourself. Sana everything will be okey, magagawa natin yon coz I promised to Papa that I will take care of you no matter what it takes.

My family is my life… my only first..

I thank you all for the warm hugs and making my vacation worth to be remembered when I get back to Riyadh. I know I got a home of my own.

Friendship Ties (Shala friends)

Friends are never coincidence in my life, they are meant to enter my life to bring comfort, affection, joy and laughter, that’s why I treasure the friendship of people who give me their trust and respect. I am so fortunate to have them let me feel my importance as a friend.

To Dave – thanks for your company. Although alam ko you’re much busy and entangled (huh?), but you manage to break out para lang makasama sa gimik. I understand if sometimes mahirap humanap ng free time. In fairness, nabigla ako sa laki ng bahay mo. Who wouldn’t think at your age, magkakaroon ka ng ganong kalaking investment. Always love your family. Just like me, I know how much you love them. Don’t give up and don’t forget to ask for His guidance. I’ll think of what we could do business together when I get back. Idol kita sa diskarte.he.he.he.he.he

To Lester – I know I am part of what you are today. Pasensya na sa mga tantrums ko before. I feel how you reciprocate the things that I have done to you. You’re such a trusted friend. I know how you really want to finish your studies. Konting tiyaga pa. I’ll do what I can when you finish your studies.

To Mar – thanks for making my vacation so “damn-satisfying”. Hindi ka talaga nauubusan ng supply!. Gaya ng dati, lakas pa rin ng PR mo. I know we can still see each other and your kindness is always rewarded by the blessings you are getting now. It pays to be kind.

Hope to have more shala on our bonding moments next time.

To my new added acquaintance friends, Carlo, Francis, KYNG, Jeff, Alex, G4M hunters and many more. I hope someday you’re still within my reach.

Most of all, to my “sweetie” … I found the missing piece of my life. I know it will be hard for us.. a choice which is volatile for both of us, an unpredictable conviction .. but with all the things we’ve shared, the times we cared.. I believe everything will be great again.. Thanks for being part of my life… again. You’re always be my baby!

There is no perfect life….but we can fill it with perfect moments..

Thank You..

Contentment is not always the fulfillment of what we want.. it is the realization of how blessed we are for the things we already have.

God understands that we are not strong all the times. Kadalasan, akala natin ang bigat ng mundo sa ating balikat. Pero andyan pa rin siya, he just want us to rest on his arms as He takes us thru the journey of life.

Wala akong hinihingi sa kanya except for what i truly deserve to have. Mahirap mag expect, mahirap mabigo. I always pray for His guidance and blessings. Na kung nasaan man ako, I am confident na andyan siya sa tabi ko.

Sometimes people give up on love that’s why God made the earth round so that if two people who are meant to be would decide to walk different paths, still at one point of the world, the end of their roads can meet.


The power of prayer will never leave you, even in the darkest times. It is the greatest weapon known to us, the freedom no one can take away.


The blessings of God flow in my life like springs of living water that never runs dry. I know He cares a lot!. I praise Him for the gift of life and the magic of love that binds my family and friends who nourish my heart and bring real joy.

(It's a bright Sunday and to express my thanks to Him, I visited the church "Our Lady of Hope Parish" in Pag-Asa QC, where I attended mass on Sundays when i was still living near the area.)

Short Prayer:


“Lord walk with me everyday. I have no idea what lies ahead. Be my strength to make the most of my life and use it to Your glory. Don’t limit the love in my heart. Let is be shared to the people I love and to those who cares. Let the beauty of life that I feel now be felt forever.”


Our Lady of Hope Parish, Pag-asa Quezon City
OLHP Adoration Chapel

Love at a Corner of a Crossroad

Once in your life, you’ll find people who are true to you….
never take them for granted..
never let them go…
coz if you lose them, you can hardly find them again..
but if they’re back…
accept them and never lose them again..
for they have made you for what you are today…

I am so thankful to God for giving me a very special day to share my love (once again!) to special person in my heart…

I may be leaving again soon, but my heart will now be left behind and kept a promise of the best to happen in the future.

Life has great options, but I don’t have to pick always what seems to be the best because sometimes the best and the perfect aren’t always makes me happy.
It’s always the fate that brings us together…
True love is truly a choice not a chance…
Things happened because it meant to happen…

You really don’t know the people you’re going to meet in a crossroad….….


Days Hotel, Tagaytay: "Rendezvous of a Promise"

Unexpectedly

Minsan, when you least expected, may kusang nangyayari o dumarating sa atin na sadyang nag papaalala sa ating nakaraan.

Sa nagsangang daan, hindi mo alam kung sino ang makakasalubong mo..mga iba't-ibang tao, mga bagong mukha at sa hindi mo inaasahan ang mga taong matagal mo nang kilala.

Sa tagal ng panahon hindi natin inaakala na kusang manumbalik ang ating nakaraan. Absence may be so long that we start learning to live without the past lalo na ang mga taong nakalimutan na natin.

In almost a decade that I left Manila, may mga taong naiwanan ko na hindi ko akalaing makikita kong muli at makakakuha ako ng impormasyon on how they are doing at present.

You lost contact…
You didn’t see each other…
You had no ideas what happened..

Kaya pag nabigyan kayo ng pagkakataon unexpectedly, andoon yong sense of belongingness, excitement at saya na mararamdaman mo towards each other..

Life is not Easy

Sto Domingo Church in Albay where part of the movie Kailangan Kita (2002) was shoot.

I never regret a day in my life because I know God has a purpose of giving me moments that I must cherish and considered to be essentials to my life.

Good day gives me happiness..
Bad days teach me experiences..
Nice people makes me feel great..
Kaya naman even if I had a bad day, at the end of the day I still thank the Lord for letting me know that there is always opposite of everything...
that there is always a choice.

Sometimes we need to experience everything and meet everyone so that we would learn that there is no easy way in living life.

The most important things are not the things at all, most of the times, they are the people making my life worth living.

God give me people to cherish, but He also introduced me to people whom are not worth to be with- na kailangan kong ingatan at wag pag aksayahan ng panahon. I know He wanted me to care for everyone, pero siguro mas kailangan kong i-reciprocate ang mga kindness ng mga taong nagmamahal sa akin.

God’s love lightens my life. His kindness molds me to a better person and he is my guide as I travel the road of life. Very often, my life becomes better sa hindi ko paglimot tumawag sa kanya may problema man o wala.

He has a purpose for all that is happening in this world. Be it something good or bad, he never willed our lives to be like hell.

I never pray for an easy life, Instead I pray to be a stronger person and ask for enough power to conquer my tasks.

It is in this life that problems come and go but just like baseball, it is the hard pitches that give meaning to it.

My Road...My Life.. My World...

There are things we regret…
Words we wish had gone unsaid…
Starts that had bitter endings..
Chances we threw away..
Roads we should have never taken…
Signs we didn’t see…
Hearts we hurt needlessly..
and wounds we wish we could mend.

But life gets that much harder..
The past can’t be rewritten
but it can make us stronger…

I’m thankful
for every change life
has thrown me..
For every break in my heart…
for every scar..
Some pages were turned…
Some bridges were burned,
but I have lessons learned
When I rolled triumphantly through several
CROSSROADS
in my life…

New Year...New Life

There's nothing more memorable than to spend the new year with the whole family. For more than 10 years, ngayon ko lang ulit nakasama ang family ko.

Noong nabubuhay pa ang father ko, our reunion held during new year. Sinisiguro niya na lahat kami kompleto at sabay sabay na mag salo-salo sa Noche Buena. However, simula noong pumunta ako ng ibang bansa, hindi na ako nakakauwi tuwing new year.

Kahit malakas ang ulan, tuloy pa rin ang saya ng buong pamilya. Dahil sa ulan, medyo nabawasan ang nagpapaputok sa amin. Good i decided not to buy firecrackers dahil alam ko sayang lang naman. Nagtiyaga na lang kami sa mga torotot at lakas ng pagpapatugtog sa loob ng bahay.

At exactly 12:00 midnight tumigil bahagya ang ulan at lumabas kami lahat to watch and greet our neighbors.

On New Year's Day, it was my first attendance to the sunday Mass in our place and it was also a time for me to thank my patron saint, St. Vincent Ferrer, who i always ask for guidance since childhood. Since i arrived, it was only that day na pumunta ako sa kanya at humingi ng despensa na hindi ko kaagad siya nadalaw. It was also the first Friday kaya maraming tao sa palengke at simbahan.

I saw all the flowers which i donate doon sa kanyang "Andas". Medyo luma na pero andoon pa rin. I always bought flower decorations para sa church namin, kaso till now wala pa rin yong bagahe ko where i put all the new flowers para sa church.

For me, marami akong dapat baguhin for my life this 2009. Hindi siya resolutions pero ito yong mga bagay about me, my family at yong kadalasan ay naglalagay sa akin sa alanganin.

I need to thank people na laging nandyan para sa akin - lalong-lalo na ang family ko.

I appreciate also the kindness na binibigay sa akin ng mga kaibigan ko, in better or worse. Sila yong mga nagbibigay lakas sa akin in times of trouble.